When Two Become One

It is a strange affair really. Two person unknown and unconnected, undergo courtship, enter into a relationship and build a connection of trust and love in hope. Each new day brings new revelation and understanding and yet, we don't mind yanking our masks to reveal our ugly selves to one another. We scream, we shout and get angry at each other in the day, yet come the twilight of an evening, we mend our ties and hurts after pulling a bit of trust and love towards each other, only to fill the gapping holes with renewed trust and love as we stare into the silent and cold nights. Sometimes we see Orion but most of the time, we only see dark clouds. Will there be a silver lining somewhere? Yet we gaze on, in awe and wonder; what is the chance of two square pegs fitting together to fall into a round hole?

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It is indeed strange as well to lie on the bed staring at her looking into the bright city, yet seeing her troubled eyes, anxious and worried what tomorrow might bring. The mystery of what goes on in her mind will not be revealed simply because she just wants to be alone, lost in her thoughts and only when the time is right, will she approaches your shoulder to find rest and solace. There are no words to be said, only the stroke of one's hands on her soft, thick and black hair to comfort.

Why do we torture ourselves anyway? Why do we want to open ourselves to strangers, to leave the comfort of our masks and seek vain familiarity? It is indeed very, very strange.

Would not books offer us some means to open our imagination? Would not the internet offer us links with others separated only by distance and the walls before us? Yet, we seek the touch of another; to look at another's face intently, to see the beauty despite the pimple here, the blackspot on the nose there as the gentle light makes its way through the shadows of leaves cast on her.


And the weirdest of all is the conscious choice to commit, to declare to all that we will share ours lives together, through thick and thin, hardship and prosperity, health and sickness with only love, faith, due consideration and respect for one another. What about having a joint savings account to pay for my beauty care? Can one live on water alone as the Chinese saying, "Lovers fill their hunger with merely water"? Or what about squeezing the toothpaste from the bottom and not from the centre?

And yet the irony of it all! Falling head over heels for the one that completes the otherwise you just thought the complete you. Allowing love to prevail, faith to sustain; to see the seasons pass, the clear smooth complexion replaced with crows feet and deep wrinkles. Will this truly last? Can I last as I erode through time and remain a memory of an apple in her mind once seen through her eyes as she is and will be in mine?


If it starts with love and sustains through faith, daily renewal of commitment and show of due care, so help me God that I neglect not a single day, from the waking till the closing of my eyes, as she lay beside from the beginning and at the end of each day till the end...